Good lord, I have never been more bored in my life. Everyday it's the same, I start out feeling optimistic, then it happens. The boredom sets in, the crippling boredom that without fail turns into a crippling agitation. I snap at everyone for no reason, I get mad at everyone for everything. I'm starting to think I need to do something after my ridiculous school days (8am-6pm). I can't stand it, I skate to try and calm down but it's kinda hard to do when my mom doesn't trust me enough to let me go out after dark. I don't get it, everyday I try and figure something out ot help it go away, but everyday at about 7 it starts coming back in full force. I can't stop it, I need something. I've been trying everything to escape it. I've been fiending my ass of, I scrape my slider and piece almost daily hoping for a bit of resin I missed, I spent all my money on 40s the other night.I hate using drugs as a means to escape, I'm more of a recreational person. I don't get it. I'm starting to think coming here was a bad idea. I wonder if I can just skip actual school, get a job and do online school. At least if I have a job I'll be able to go out and do things. I won't have to worry about running out of things to do, maybe I can get a car and drive my ass back up to Orem and spend my time being a skate bum like I enjoy oh so much. Fuck. I need some soda.
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